Love Recipe For A Starless Summer Evening

A slice of ripe mango
dipped in honey, a dash of cinnamon
on the terrace a starless summer evening
backs warmed by the afternoon heat trapped in the walls
jasmines spill from the creeper
the night queen invites lovers
to drown in her thick nectar
he says your breast are like mangoes
don’t give me that
have been hearing this since the Sangam poets  
he draws in his cigarette and breathes out
eyes on me
the breath of mint lozenges and tobacco smoke
do what breast-like mangoes don’t.

Big Tent Poetry


Uncrease my crumpled heart.
What’s the process for that?
You are a shop-floor man
you work with action plans
now sweetheart have you one for me?
a night at the bar, hand stealing up the thighs
that I purse together:
oh don’t stop.  please.
Known me how many years now?
a sip as the tincture of seduction
             bobs down your Adam’ s apple
you look at the woman in a black gown
don’t I know this pattern?
I’ll play my game
my eyes wander to the man at the balcony
shirt like the caparison on a horse’s back –
Goa print, unbuttoned : breeze unruffles the hair.
I feel your fingers behind my ears
finding the nerves that want me to doff my robe
all in public view. 
                                                        I give a damn.

Big Tent Poetry

Blessed Are Those Who Can Read

We wrote a letter to God
a strip of paper from school book torn carefully
(God shouldn’t think we are shabby no?)
with pencil haltingly wrote
I never wrote missives independently
three of us
our heads crowded over the paper
wrote we love you
because God Is Love

we never knew we could ask for things
we never had anything to ask
we rolled the strip
as we had seen deft hands roll bidis
we forcefully put away that image
smoking is sin. only bad men smoke bidis.
and buried the roll under the rain tree
in the sprawling school garden beyond the chapel

such a big place in the heart of the city
all missionary money my uncle said
– disapprovingly as I read it now –
then I went shy when anything relating to me drew attention
I erased myself and wanted to talk only to God
wore clothes that I thought would make me disappear
wore pale greens and sat in the garden.

We carved on the tree trunk
with the razor I stole from my father’s shaving kit
sustaining cut marks that bled
and burned : a cross like the one we found in chapel
I visited the chapel every day, knelt on the cool floor
carried home souvenir bible, plastic cross
that set my grandmother sleepless.

I lay in my bed and looked out of the window
picturing God with flowing beard come down
wasn’t sure if he flew or dropped a rope ladder
like my heroes in Tamil films
my brother asked there are two of them is it?
Jesus and your God? Related?
Father son like Appa and me?

Don’t question anything, child. just have faith
said Sister Marie Punida. I focused.
God with flowing beard
(closed the door of my room so that no one interrupted)
flying down (I had made up my mind on that)
digging near the tree, eyes calm as a lake
narrowed into clearer pools as he read my letter
and left a message.

Next day during the break
we dug and found the paper gone, ha we knew that
dug deeper and the soft twig
we used for digging struck something hard
gentle prodding and then a rusted key
look Saint Peter’s key.
I blinked. read your bible first.
I had tears of frustration. I took long to read
my writings were loops and scrawls.

A line from the letter
if God had cared to leave I would have read
slowly tracing my fingers on the paper.
Leaving a message whose meaning
I had to read from a small book
with tiny letters made my world fall.
God was kinder to those who could read  
make meaning fast.

Writer’s Island 

Marriage Of Madurai And Myanmar

He wears his hat at all times
the fancy straw one
worn in rice fields of Burma,
this man who comes to weed my garden says
I am part Burmese part Chinese

I look closely at his features:
he is a stocky man,
eyes that smile and caress 
a man from my Madurai
nestled deep in Tamil Nadu.

He knows what runs in my mind,
he takes me to his house
pulls out an old album,
shy silverfish hide behind photos
yellowed and blurred.

He shows a photo
my grandfather, he says
standing with a few men
Chinese? Burmese?
on a dug up mound.

He built the Burma road
during the world war
marrying China and India
through mountains
gorges and river valleys.

He and the men from his village
alongside Chinese laborers
built every road that took soldiers
to fight the Japanese
who moved up from the Andaman seas.

He then shows me a China
chipped and cracked:
it somehow seems odd
in the hands of this man from Madurai
in his Madras house –

a proof to the story
that wed Myanmar and Madurai?

Magpie Tales

Green Berries

I didn’t care for a gooseberry
my cousins did
they fought for the berries
that pimpled the two trees
in my grandmother’s yard
they scampered up mango trees
but for these jade berries
it was always a long stick
with a hook tied at its end
small hands strained as they lifted the stick
small bodies swayed as they aimed for berries
the hook on a cluster
a small tug
and then
rain of berries
s  c a t t e r e d  a l l  o v e r
in the gutter, on the compost heap
they impatiently washed the berries
and bit into them
shuddering goose pimpling
at the sourness
ate till their tummies ached
each had her own threshold
how many gooseberries can you eat to become sick?

In the bazaar
a light glows over a heap of gooseberries
I pick one
bite into my first berry
the juice on my teeth
shatters time
I taste my grandmother’s house
the tang brings a rash of memories.